Raindrops

They make me emo and deenergised. Maybe demotivated as well. Right now I'm supposed to be doing more stuff than just this. But of course, I don't look like I've done things like that. So.

Someone give me a good hard shove. I'd like to try going over the edge sometime.


Cold fingers numbs the creativity as well.

Gumballs

I have a mini gumball machine sitting in one corner of my house. Just got it today, random encounter of the human kind in the dungeon.



I'm still thinking about how to use it. Should I sell gumballs, or should I keep the gumballs for myself?

Nothing

... characterizes the life now. Nothing much to talk about yet.

Poker Night is this Friday night. Maybe there'll be a bigger update here after that's out of the way. Maybe not.

Rush

aka The Dummies' Guide to Doing Homework.

Step 1. Look at assignment.
Step 2. Check Wikipedia for quick review of topic. If assigned topic is easy, skip to step 4 straight away.
Step 3. Google your assignment topic for more detail.
Step 4. Decide that you understand the topic through and through.
Step 5. Make a note on your calendar to remind yourself of the due date for your assignment.
Step 6. Party, enjoy life.
Step 7. 2 days before due date, start rushing. [Coffee is vital for this step]
Step 8. Submit assignment 2 hours before the due time on the day itself.

Rule of Assignments #1. The closr to the start of the semester you get your assignment, the more likely you will have to rush the darn thing.

Open Day

"Remember to wear warm clothing, it's predicted that we'll get temperatures around 12 degrees on Sunday."

Yeah right. Intermittent rain and strong winds isn't exactly going to help an Open Day anyway. Most of the day was spent guiding people to wherever they wanted to go to, and handing out helium balloons [although with the wind, I'd hate to hold on to balloons for the rest of the day].

Spring

Temperatures are rising, spring is approaching. And come mid-spring, I'll be free again.

One of those days...

... when you look at yourself, and go "what the fuck have I done with my life so far?"

Relativity

It's interesting to find that all I have to do is to get home, switch on my laptop and then the next thing I know, it's 12 midnight and I haven't done a thing at all.

Time dilation or length contraction, I doubt either would explain how time flies this fast.

Lectures

"Due to conditions beyond my control we will have to cancel today's lectures. There will be no lectures on Wednesday 12th of August."


People sitting in the lecture theatre now: FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUU.....

Slackers setting off late from home: Yay :D

Trains

It's pretty awesome, the type of people you see on trains.

You get the friendly noisy stranger, who talks to you on trains. A friend of a friend of mine found one guy who could yodel very well. And that was only because the yodeller talked to this friend first.

You also get the politically motivated activist. They'd go around, handing out survey forms to passengers, asking for signatures. There was this guy I met one night, he was trying to collect enough signatures to petition to boot Connex out of handling the Melbourne public trains.

And then you get the evangelists, who'd get on the train and start asking people, "Would you like me to read you a story?"

Ah, the fun of travelling on trains in Melbourne.

Rage

"This ATM has run out of $20 notes. Please enter a different amount."


FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.....

Repetition

Life is monotonous this time of year. Although it's coming to the end of winter [spring officially starts on the 1st of September], I don't feel it. There's some sort of delayed lethargy settling into my bones now.

Wake up.
Shower.
Eat breakfast, pack lunch.
Go to train station.
Arrive at city, get tram to uni.
Go for classes.
Hang out with friends. [who don't always notice your presence]
Go to train station.
Get home.
Switch on laptop.
Stone until hungry or tired.
Sleep.

Rinse and repeat as required.


Some days I feel worse than a machine.

Writer's Block

What happens when you get an assignment barely a week into the new semester, as well as two event reports to write up, and one of the event reports is poorly written.


Headbang. No way this should be happening. But it is. T_T

Renting

450 bucks for an [almost] empty shell of an apartment.

City prices drive me nuts. And so does the Malaysian student mentality. What to do, except sit around and pray someone manages to change their mindset.

Uphill

Everything in life goes up, or so they say.


Note to self: Don't go jogging uphill again.

Laments

Every day, the same questions ring in my empty head.

Why.

A thousand times a day, the same question, repeating endlessly, as though demanding attention.

Yet there is no ready answer.

Articles

As the editor, and the guy who's taken Creative Writing, I can't believe how difficult it is to write a simple short article of something that I attended and just happened 2 days ago.



Ouch.

Questions

Life certainly is funny.

Why do two people who like each other deny that reality?

Demotivators 2

Just for laughs.

Invisible

Why am I constantly that one person who's left out of the conversations?

Why does the silence seem inevitable?

Why don't things fall "naturally" into place?

Why do relationships have to screw up friendships?

So many questions.
So few answers.
When, oh when, will the wind stop howling?

Box Hill 2

I've been up there too many times. Except that this time round, I'm just another invisible little kid, heard but not seen, wandering around.

Sometimes I wonder why I bother. It was a trip which was "supposed" to cheer me up by sending me into the sunlight. Yeah right. As though it helped.

-I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares
Cos I'm alone and the world
Is having more fun than me
Tonight-

Outings

Just another way of saying "You've got work to do while everyone else is skiing."

On the other hand we get to go somewhere, stretch our legs a bit. Trade offs seem to be the mainstay of our lives, isn't that right?

Weekend

First week back at uni, and it's flashed by so fast. Met some old friends, made some new friends. Nothing much to report back yet though.

There's gonna be a weekend outing to Box Hill, thanks to New Careers, the IESS sponsor. Unfortunately they won't be sponsoring our food bills up there, so it should be Vietnamese food and laser tag on the agenda, I guess.

And by the way, 250 blog posts, yay!

Survey: Students have no qualms about bribes

For original article go here: link

This tells us how badly society affects us students nowadays. It is an old adage that tells us, "Absolute power corrupts absolutely."
And now even university students don't mind taking bribes. Really, so many things have failed in Malaysia, and now the latest failure is the concept of integrity. It has mysteriously disappeared. Good luck with Vision 2020.

Demotivators

They're good ideas. Heck I should make more of them.

The only problem is finding a good supply of photos to use.

MLIA 2

I just realised that I do a lot of things just to please everyone [well, if not everyone then at least most people] and to save my own arse.

This isn't helping me, I'm getting more and more constricted and squashed out of any shape I have now. It doesn't help that I lack a stress release mechanism.

And what do you do when the girl you like acts like a spoilt brat when you're hanging out with all your friends?

Linear Algebra

Its called that, but you deal with matrices. Which is like back in SAM again, doing Maths again. To think that the lectures are overfull is kinda weird, since I'd expect people to skip some of the lectures.

Oh wait. Not everyone is as mad as me yet.

Command and Conquer 4

The end of the Tiberium saga.

The end of the Kane-GDI rivalry.

The conclusion of what started in Tiberian Dawn.

Reset

Once again, the holidays end too soon, and we're back for classes. Another 2 months to the next break, time does fly.

It takes the writer to know what his characters will do.

Library

I love visiting the City Library. It's quietly tucked away in one corner of the city, and at least it offers the books I enjoy reading - WWII and Cold War conspiracies which lead up to the present day.

Jack Higgins anyone?

MLIA

Go figure. If you guys stay over tonight, that's just it.

Sometimes I don't like being younger than the crowd. Look at it, if being born in the fourth quarter of the year isn't enough, try being one year younger as well.

GAH

MLIA.

Return

With everyone coming back from holidays, I run around a lot more now.

Dinner later at 7. I guess it will be one of the earliest times I eat nowadays.



I'm bored.

Discrimination

Whites see us Asians as separate categories based on skin colour - Chinese, Vietnamese, Malays, Indians, Indonesians, Africans. That's actually quite simplistic. Being Asians, we tend to see other things as well.

Especially Malaysians. Common misconceptions made by some white folks:

All Malaysians are Malays.
All Chinese come from China.

So Malaysian Chinese like myself get discriminated against because we look like mainland Chinese. We do NOT look like them. And more importantly, we don't sound a bit like them when we talk. At least we don't mangle English that badly.
Ah well, the price we pay for coming overseas.

Birthday

Gags are purely for fun only. Can't believe we actually made David do that last night. Rocking party, enhanced by music. Although one thing missing was the mingling. IE people more or less kept to themselves. Damn sad. I think the room should have been smaller to make up for the number of people.

Potatoes

Never deep fry mashed potatoes in a wok.

Reading

Finished of the last of the 3 books I bought... wait. 12 days ago! That's less than 2 weeks. Looks like the next stop for me has to be the City library. Or I'll soon be bored out of my wits again.

Yesterday's cooking session yielded some expected results - no charcoal or ashes. Haha.

Kyp out.

Cooking

Simple matter of looking in the kitchen, then finding whatever you have and bunging that into the oven/pot. Which really describes the normal student's way of finding food to eat.

Now some brave souls want to experiment. I hope nothing becomes charcoal, since we're gonna be the ones eating what we've cooked.

That sinking feeling...

...that you get when you find that it's less than a week to your next deadline, and you've barely made any progress on your work.

Comments:
Feeling will be amplified by random comments from other people. Especially comments which say "I did what I wanted to do."

Newsletter

It's coming along now. Not much, but yeah, there's still something to show for the modest [read: nonexistent] amount of work done during the first 3 weeks of the holidays.

At least all that's missing now is the photos and the president's welcome. Well, I might add a joke or two, or a comic strip. Nothing in stone yet though, don't hold me to anything I say here.


Another day, another week, another month. I miss you.

Let the spam begin

With the next semester timetable out, the spam is beginning to flood in. Everyone requesting swaps and stuff.

And we'll be prepared for the funny stuff which can come in. Last semester showcased the "swing flu" spam. What's in store this semester, nobody knows yet. We're gonna be waiting around for that.

Boredom

It's like a drug. It gets to your head. Slowly, it spreads from there. The limbs, the torso, the organs. One by one, slowly but surely.

In the end you don't feel like going anywhere, or doing anything.

Depression

I'm headed down that road already if nobody can help me out.

Clayton + Australian synchrotron

Went down to Clayton today to meet up with Andrew. For one thing, I must say that Clayton is a little boring. It's like Mont Albert, but Monash Uni being there gives it some difference, I guess. Having nothing to do except lunch in town [the Indian food there is surprisingly delectable], we decided to tour the Monash Clayton campus.
And that led to the Australian synchrotron up along Blackburn Road. One thing surprised me regarding the synchrotron which doesn't show up in the photos. There's a lot of barbed wire around the fence, yet the gate is wide open.

Lucky thing I got back before the storm blew into Surrey Hills. It was bad enough in Clayton, and it definitely sounded worse here.

Anyway, pix.

That's the synchrotron seen from a distance.

The inside of the synchrotron

The frontage of the Australian synchrotron

L-R view of the Monash football field

Signboard advertising the Australian synchrotron

The Forgotten - part 8

Night.

Time of the great silence
the unknown lurks around.
Watching, waiting.
Anywhere, everywhere at once.

Unforgettable, the things that stay with us.
The good times, they pass too soon.
The bad moments, they stick
and haunt our dreams.

I do not fear night.
Stronger in the darkness,
my dreams take shape.


The Forgotten walks again tonight.

Regarding the policy reversal

[Disclaimer: the author is a product of the Malaysian education system. Any comments he makes here are true and not embellished in any way.]

After 6 years of implementation, 6 long years, now the policy has been reversed. I will tell you the same thing proponents of the policy say: Don't waste our money on changing plans back and forth. And now a quick shoutout to all those blithering idiots supporting the reversal.

To the Malay nationalists:

No, teaching Science and Maths in English is a good concept. It will not weaken the position of Malay, seeing that the standard of SPM Bahasa Malaysia questions are extremely high compared to the parody of an exam you call the SPM English 1119 paper. And there are already so many subjects taught in Malay, so there is no need to teach every non-language subject in Malay.

To the Chinese traditionalists:

If you enjoy Chinese so much, go. Just leave Malaysia. I have seen with my eyes how the Chinese in Australia adapt to using English in schools. Yes, I know they are forced to do it because of the system. But they are adapting to the system, not forcing the system to change every few years. Besides, Chinese students have been beating the crap out of the Malaysian education system, consistently scoring many A1's in SPM. So if our students have been able to do it when the mode of instruction was in Malay, and they did it again when Science and Maths were taught in English, why not let them continue? Why the resistance? Why can't we prove that the Chinese are flexible? Besides, why do you even support Malay at secondary school levels? Shouldn't you campaign for Chinese education to be available at all levels?

Technology

One of the best ways for parents to nag you about stuff, and also interrogate you about exam results.

GAH

Doncaster SC

A bit of a let down, really. I'd say it's like Subang Parade, without the arcade. Even then, who goes to the arcade in Parade? Certainly not me, even though I'm a proud Subang resident. Oh well, you win some, you lose some.

Books, books. Just finished off a historical conspiracy theory story. Due to the historical nature of the story, it is damned sad when you get to the end of the story and read that the heroes have to die so that spacetime continuity is preserved. But all in all, I must say I enjoyed the read.


-Solace in the strength of the winds.-

Paydirt

After searching high and low in discount warehouses and in bookshop discount bins, finally. Finally some luck. Managed to get hold of not 1, but 3 books for $15. As sweet as it can get here.

Now I can read a lot again. Haha.

Posts

Long posts do not appeal to most readers. How sad.

Ah well. Maybe that's why newspapers no longer appeal to most people as well. Reading online articles might be easier for some, I guess.

-All it takes to destroy the world as we know it is for the good people to stand by while evil takes charge.-

Mixed feelings over switch, eh? Go screw yourself, says the wise one

Yet another change to the education system, yet another way of wasting taxpayers' money.

Define "mother tongue". Is it:

a) the language you first spoke at home?
or
b) the language of your race?

I remember some of us trying to debate this question with a lecturer last year. Sadly, to some people, as long as:

a) you aren't white,
b) you don't have a white parent,
c) you weren't born in an English speaking country, and lived there for more than 3 weeks,

you automatically don't qualify to say English is your mother tongue. Which is really unfair for those of us who've spoken English more than any other language since young. Hey, in case anyone high up reads blogs from the masses, understand this: we demand our rights too. Don't leave us out just because we aren't the majority. Our parents still pay you taxes, and I simply hate to see their hard-earned money going down the drain caused by the government changing plans every decade or so.

And why do the politicians need to come out to welcome the move? This seems like a sign that political pressures still rule this country of ours, that students are just pawns in the chess game of politics. So, in future, if you really want to change the lives of people, don't be an engineer or architect or scientist. Go and be a POLITICIAN. Even though you'll be cursed by everyone for failing them, you get to see your stuff implemented. You'll be happy, your supporters will be happy, your enemies will be happy, it's all a win-win situation, eh?

English is, and will be, the language for disseminating information throughout the world. General English is for communication purposes only. If you can't read and write technical terms in English, don't dream of going to any white man's land. Stay at home. Do your degree locally, feed the local education industry, earn lots of ringgit and make Malaysia proud. UTAR needs students. UiTM needs students. Go make them happy. Stay at home and make more champs. Then at international meetings, the only Malaysians you'll be seeing will be those who fit any one of these categories:

a) went to international schools
b) were born overseas, educated overseas since young
c) were through some distant relative, linked back to Malaysia

In short, the ones who will make us proud are the ones who ran away from the hopelessly failing education system. They will carry our flag, hidden in the shadows of another bigger flag.


To Muhyiddin, I don't know whether you enjoy this switch, but have fun facing criticism. To the Cabinet ministers who voted "Nay" to the change, I'm with you. To those who voted "Aye" for the change, I hope that your next trip in a bus ends up over a cliff. Hopefully while your contingent goes up to Genting, your driver fucks up. Good luck with facing rotten eggs anyway. Don't forget, the ones who understand more will end up with the world. Like Jesus, Moses, Muhammad, Buddha. Not politicians.

Math and Science back to Bahasa, mother tongues

The Star
Published: Wednesday July 8, 2009 MYT 2:42:00 PM
Updated: Wednesday July 8, 2009 MYT 3:55:24 PM
Math and Science back to Bahasa, mother tongues

KUALA LUMPUR: The Cabinet has decided that the medium of instruction for Maths and Science will revert to Bahasa Malaysia in national schools and mother-tongue languages in national-type schools from 2012 onwards.

The reversal of the Teaching of Math and Science in English (PPSMI) policy will be done in stages, Deputy Prime Minister Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin said on Wednesday.

He however added that there will be greater emphasis on learning the English language.

English literature will be re-introduced, as will subjects on grammar and composition.

Beginning 2012, students in Year One and Year Four in primary schools, and Form One and Form Four in secondary schools, will learn Math and Science in Bahasa Malaysia.

The change will not affect those in Form Six and Matriculation.

The two subjects will be taught in two languages until 2014 for other students, he said.

“The gap between rural and urban students has widened since PPSMI started.

“Only 19.2% of secondary teachers and 9.96% of primary teachers were sufficiently proficient in English,” he said, explaining the Government’s decision to revert to the old system.

On efforts to emphasise the learning of English, the number of English teachers would be increased by 13,933 -- retirees would be hired, as well as foreigners if need be.

Primary schools will also increase English classes by 90 minutes a week.

There have been calls from various groups for the policy to revert to before 2003, when the subjects were taught in Bahasa Malaysia in national schools, and either in Chinese or Tamil in national-type schools.

The issue has seen a rare alliance between Malay and Chinese educationists, who are against the switch, although there are also calls by many parents and entrepreneurs for English to be maintained.

Thank goodness my brother and sister escape the horrors of reverting to BM and mother tongues for Science and Maths. They're just one year ahead of this epic reversal stunt pulled off by the Cabinet.

Let's look at something I find interesting:

The issue has seen a rare alliance between Malay and Chinese educationists, who are against the switch...

Do you really think that they are allied against the teaching of Science and Maths in English for the same reasons? I don't think so. The two groups may be allied in their stand, but one thing has been clear from the start: They each have their own agendas. As far as I understand [and this understanding may be biased or flawed], the Malays feel that the "superiority" of their language is being threatened by English. On the other hand, the Chinese educationists believe that the majority of Chinese students are not making much headway with Science and Maths taught in English. It's basically two different groups of people, with different reasons for uniting against a common problem. What they plan after that is another point entirely. Which worries me. Will another different group of people demand something else again later on? And how will the Cabinet decide this time round?

Conspiracy theories aside, all I can say regarding this piece of news is that the education system in Malaysia is just another step towards generating failures. "Malaysisa", one of the most common spelling mistakes for "Malaysia", might soon become fact rather than fiction, if we keep spewing out "sisa" like the person writing the letter in the post below this.

Malaysian English

Malaysia-Today
Why English should not be taught in Bahasa Malaysia
Posted by admin
Tuesday, 07 July 2009 15:20

There is currently a brouhaha going on about the proposed teaching of Science and Maths in English. Some would like these two subjects to be taught in Bahasa Malaysia. I am not too concerned about Science and Maths. I am more worried about English. I feel English should no longer be taught in Bahasa Malaysia.

NO HOLDS BARRED

Raja Petra Kamarudin

And why do I think that English should not be taught in Bahasa Malaysia? Well, maybe this circular from one of Malaysia’s leading universities would explain everything.
*************************************************

4th UiTM INTERNATIONAL SPORTS FIESTA
19 – 23 November 2009 FUTSAL-RUGBY 7- TENPIN BOWLING-BADMINTON

Dear Sport Friends,

Regarding about the global issue H1N1 happens around the world, sadly to be informing that our UiTM International Sports Fiesta will be postponing to 19-23 November 2009.

For all teams which have been confirm to participate in our events, we have to say sorry for this announcements and our Ministry of Higher Education and Ministry of Health also advise to us to change the date for this current situation.

By the date have been confirm incoming this November hopefully your teams still can participate in our event and don’t hesitate to contact us for further information.

And again, we would like to say sorry about the date change for the sake of our health among us.

See you in this November at UiTM Malaysia!!

Regards,

Mr. Mustaza Ahmad
Director
Sports Centre
Universiti Teknologi MARA
Malaysia

I have nothing more to say about this other than:

EPIC FAIL

Government monitoring blogs closely, says Rais

Tuesday July 7, 2009 MYT 7:27:00 PM
Government monitoring blogs closely says Rais

KUALA LUMPUR: Special units have been set up under both the Home, and the Information, Communications and Culture Ministries to monitor blogs and ensure that the content adheres to local laws.

Minister Datuk Seri Dr Rais Yatim, who is in charge of the communications portfolio, said both ministries would also exchange information between themselves to ensure maximum monitoring.

Besides monitoring, Dr Rais said his ministry also held meetings and dialogues with bloggers and website operators to inform them about government policies.

“We inform them about the various laws that they should be aware of when they blog, especially those relating to racial harmony and national security.

“We also remind them about the existence of legislation such as the Sedition Act, Defamation Act and Internal Security Act,” he said.

Earlier, he told both Shamsudin Mehat and Datuk Dr Yeow Chai Thiam that the Government would adopt an “open approach” towards the new media.

“The Government encourages people to use the internet to search for information and knowledge as this helps to increase the broadband usage in the country,” he said.

Dr Rais said the Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission also organised programmes to promote awareness on proper usage of internet, such as cyberspace security, publication of articles, interviews in electronic media and in advertisments.

To a question from Ahmad Hussin whether the Government intended to draw up a code of ethics for bloggers as they had the power either to unite or wreck society, Dr Rais said the Home Ministry would monitor the bloggers under the Printing and Publications Act.

“My ministry will monitor these blogs under the Communications and Multimedia Act,” he said.

Hmm. Seems like we kids won't be in much trouble over these sort of acts. But thinking about it, do we really need police in the Net? [I refer, of course, to the Net policing and monitoring Rais refers to.]

I don't think that all of us are that naive to assume that everything on the Net is true.

Do not trust Wikipedia 100%.
-Ray Dagastine-

Although you do have one or two mishaps, not all of us will believe that there is a Father somewhere in Malaysia attempting to convert Muslims. What more to stories of slaughter and bloodshed. For that, we need more than one reliable source to actually start thinking that something real has happened/is happening.
As for politics, I will not delve into that deeply, since that is beyond the normal, politically unconnected Malaysian. We can only speculate. We can't say anything. Anything we say is, really, hot air until it's confirmed by someone in the right areas.

Top Gear

MSN PMs are a good place to find interesting stuff. This evening I watched Jeremy, James and Hammond try to make better police cars. Now I'm watching them trash the Satria Neo and the Myvi. Check them out!

Just for fun

在这里住了快要五个月了，我不觉得这儿像洋人的地盘。假如你到市中心走一趟，你会看到一大把华人。
对某些人讲，这里就很像家乡，根本都不需要走很远就碰见同乡的人。

唉。太久没用华语了，虽然遇到大陆来的，他们跟我们大马来的多数就是用英文谈天。

Crysis: Warhead

Finished Crysis: Warhead last night. Verdict: No replayability value if you take the same route through the game.

I'm bored again. Crysis really takes a chunk out of my laptop, and I can't afford to run Crysis all the time. Better get out and go exploring again.

Books

It's hard to find a book that I really enjoy reading, since I filter books before actually buying/borrowing them.

Good plot? Check.
No cliched characters? Check.
Good thickness? Check.

If I get hold of books like that, I'll be happy. But even in a warehouse like the one in Collingwood, I still can't find much to interest me. Self help? Nah. Autobiographies/biographies? Not that the people featured are worth reading about. [eg. Katie Price]

Oh well. Looks like I should go exploring more places instead. Melbourne is so big, there's so many places to go. Hmm.

Solace in boredom

Quite the oxymoron in the title. But then again sometimes boredom brings more interesting things to light. Like the fun of playing DotA or Crysis Warhead.
Or the simple joy of exploring suburbs, finding the fascinating stuff to enjoy.
Ha. What some of us love, others miss out on.

May we kiss whom we please, and please whom we kiss.
-Toast-

The Star
Friday July 3, 2009
Some lost in both languages

IT is a known fact that our younger generation is weak in English and I am happy to know our Government is addressing this issue.

Sadly though, I have not heard anything about the level of proficiency in Bahasa Malaysia. Are we happy with the command of Bahasa Malaysia among our youths, especially the non-Malays?

We have used Bahasa Malaysia as the medium of instruction for more than 30 years, and yet I can still find many who are below 30 years old who are weak in Bahasa Malaysia. Despite going through school and passing examinations, this group of people cannot converse in Bahasa Malaysia.

There are many local graduates who are neither proficient in Bahasa Malaysia nor English. They cannot speak, write or debate in both languages.

In short, for all its strength, our education system has created a portion of society who can neither speak our national language nor the international language i.e. English.

Why do we talk about mastering English to compete globally when we cannot even master our own national language?

RONIN TAY,

Kuala Lumpur.

Well said. Focus on one, lose the other. Focus on the other, lose the first one. Focus on both simultaneously, lose everything.

Wandering

Went to Chadstone today for the sake of stretching my legs. A lot of sales on now. Didn't buy clothes though. Managed to get hold of Crysis Warhead, so I'm going to be playing that first.

My mind wanders as much as my body does. In fact it goes further.

Drafts

It's unbelievably difficult to write up a simple letter nowadays. Introduction, body, ending. I hate it, since it gives the feel of an exam. Without the grades, of course.

Oh well, one simple remedy - procrastination.

"When I first saw you I thought you were some high school student."
"What..."
-random quote from yesterday-

Market research

Went to South Melbourne for some market research stuff. I can't believe that you can hide modern stuff inside an old furniture warehouse.

*recalls Old Engineering building*

Then again, maybe you can. But anyway, market research is always secret. I hate that sort of secrecy crap. "Sign here, and here, and swear not to tell anyone until this product hits the market."
Focus group was 5 Malaysians, 1 Singaporean, 1 German and 1 Canadian. Asian domination ftw. Other than that, I really can't say anything more. Mainly because someone in the group kept staring at me for the entire 2 hours.

Frank open stares are inviting.

June -> July

Transition is something that happens. It just happens. If there's no significance to the transition, no fireworks will go off. Like day to night, night to day. Who really cares and parties every midnight? It's just some cold logic though.

Other transitions are more memorable though. Your 18th, your first day at a new school, anything that will change your life by more than just 2 inches will be memorable.

-Unrequited love always hurts.-

Hibernation

Such is winter. I am more or less hibernating as well. There's not much to do, and thanks to my parents, I'm forced to get back home by 3 pm if I go out. So that's kinda limiting some of my travelling, since exploring far out places like Clayton or Springvale need time. And it seems that time isn't always what I have. Oh well.

Chrono-technology is matter transfer technology. I want it badly.

The Forgotten - part 7

He wakes
alone in the dark
silence washes over him.

It is bliss
the welcome quiet
after an evening of noise and anger.

Clouds scud across the sky
blotting out the silver moonlight
blanketing the houses below.

This is what I like
Just let me be.

Housing/Science and Maths

Went house hunting yesterday. Found 2 decent places, so around this time next year I'll be living in the city. I haven't confirmed which part of the city though, although I know I'll be either somewhere around Melbourne Central or up near Spring St. At least that's one thing I worry about less, now that I've figured out my accommodation.

*

The Star
Monday June 29, 2009
Anwar: Scrap use of English for Science and Maths

PETALING JAYA: Scrap the policy of teaching Science and Mathematics in English and bring back Bahasa Melayu as the medium of instruction in the education system, said Opposition Leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim.

He also called for the return of Bahasa Melayu’s status as the supreme language, which includes using it as the medium to teach Science and Maths in national schools and also strengthening its usage in Chinese and Tamil schools.

“This issue has become a controversy for far too long.

“We consider this policy a betrayal of Bahasa Melayu as our official language,” he told a press conference yesterday.

Anwar, however, conceded that it was important to master English and agreed that there should be constructive steps taken to improve the usage and understanding of the language.

“But how we do it should be decided by educationists and with consideration towards the national education policy.

“This includes not forcing our children to pass English as a compulsory subject in the Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) as this will result in many students, especially in rural areas, to fail,” added Anwar.

On another matter, Anwar questioned Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak’s sincerity when announcing the government’s plan to introduce a new category of Public Service Department (PSD) scholarships which would be based purely on merit.

“The last time when I suggested the plan, I was called a Chinese agent and a traitor to the Malays,” he said.

Anwar also lauded PAS spiritual leader Datuk Nik Aziz Nik Mat’s proposal to have a debate with Najib.

He said an open debate would be the best way to clear up the accusations against the Kelantan Mentri Besar.

Unfortunately for Pakatan Rakyat, I have to disagree with Anwar over his handling of the Science and Maths issue. I am seeing first-hand how some of the mainland Chinese students struggle to deal with the technical terms used in tertiary level studies. So if you think these stuff should come instinctively, you are dead wrong. There are those who can do it intuitively, and there are those who can't. It's one of the sad facts of life now.

The Forgotten - part 6

The abyss looms
deep and dark.
I peer inside
feelings welling from deep in me.

The love once budding
cut by shears,
sharp and bright.
The trust once given
now crumpled and cast aside.

From the darkness
A light beckons
From within
Forgiveness waves hello

I crave solace.
I hunger for release.

"Just let me go."

The Forgotten - part 5

He walks again, amongst the living.
He's next to you, but you don't feel him
until you need him.
By then, he's miles away, seeking acceptance
forever trying to fit in.
Like a key bent out of shape
by some malevolent force.
He is desperate,
but few will stop to help
for he is but another oddity
in their minds.

When will he find solace?
When will he find acceptance?
When will he be satisfied with his life?

When will he find himself?

Transformers 2

It was good for the action and Megan Fox. Other than that, apparently some people don't really like the plot and the way it unfolded. To me, when I watch a movie for the explosions and stuff, I don't really think deeply about all the mechanics of plot and stuff, I just watch for the boom and bang. Although how a destroyer carries a railgun is kinda interesting and plot-breaking.

Oh and by the way, for those guys whining about Megatron, think about it this way instead. Why did they make Optimus Prime so strong?

Red Alert 3

Finally finished the 3 campaigns for Red Alert 3. I am once again, bored.

I wish I had the Cryocopter's cryobeam weapons. Imagine all the cheesy stunts you could pull off.

Star Wars fan fiction

There's a reason why I stopped reading Star Wars fan fiction once I'd read Jedi Eclipse. It just got overly boring. I mean, there's only so much death and destruction that you can take. Don't tell me that the galaxy is only that big. Come on, there have to be better scenarios than genocidal aliens coming in to eradicate every sentient being.

Having said that, I still find that fan fiction spawns some of the more intriguing stuff. Like Kyp, for example. Hotshot Jedi, he doesn't always play by the rules. And he makes his own rules, I guess, like me. Haha.

Szechuan food

Chilli is fun, as is peppercorn. Apparently peppercorn, when chewed, tastes of berries after the residual pepper taste fades away. And that was the reddest meal I'd ever had, with chilli in every dish except the long beans.
Sheer boredom then led to the following stuff. I don't usually think of myself as an inspiration, but then a random comment about the taste of peppercorns led to a peppercorn treasure hunt.

Searching hard for the peppercorns. Plenty of effort expended.

And voila! The end result. Not much to speak of though.

Others join in a different hunt.

And their result - lots of bean sprouts!

Finally, change of scenery. Tea art with chilli oil.

Cameras

2 megapixels is no longer enough for any decent photo work nowadays. All the pictures I take on my mobile phone are hopelessly blurry. Looks like this holidays I'll be looking out for new/reliable models for digital cameras.

Sunday

It's that day in the whole week where nobody shouts if you sleep in.

It's that day when your friends tell you, "Not morning please, I'm busy."

It's the last day of the week, when you curse and say, "Back to serious stuff tomorrow."

Parties

In vino veritas. That sums up the whole party last night.

Unfortunately I had to miss the Kokoda trip, but then in a way, I'd already made up for it by going to Olinda. Near enough to the Dandenong Ranges to count as "going up the mountainside". The houses there are lovely, even though they're hardly counted as mansions.

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At least the cleaning up paid off. I now have an open space in my lounge, didn't expect that. It was fun to have so many friends over, except that it was kinda boring - nothing to play with or watch in my place, except lots of music. And so we ended up eating, enjoying music, and generally fooling around. Good clean fun.

I honestly need to get a good digital camera. Most of my mobile phone shots aren't worthy of blog space.

Catalyst

I know two things that will make a guy clean his house. Friends coming over, or the landlord coming to inspect. So at least I've got something done already for today, despite getting up at 12.

Plenty of stuff for me to do up during these 2 days.

Party - Olinda, 8 pm tonight, staying over until morning
Trekking + picnic - Kokoda walk, 9 am tomorrow
Box Hill lunch - Station St, Box Hill, ~1 pm tomorrow
Dessert - Surrey Hills, ~2.30 pm tomorrow

But for all that stuff, I'm gonna miss my friends during the winter break, since most of them won't be in Melbourne then. T_T

Forever

I will say this for the last time, before my friends ask me to shut my gob for good.

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER FOR ME TODAY!

Got that outta my system now, so that's good. Bloody tired after barefoot volleyball, dodgeball and random chasing around Flagstaff Gardens.

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I'm being coerced into finding a job for winter. I know it's a decent idea to work during winter, but I still feel it's the kind of jobs I'm being asked to apply for that turns me off. Argh.

Well, then it's time for me to find solace in poetry.

There's no reason
There's no point
There's already the best one in front of me

Why do I search so hard?
Why do I look so far?
Why do I wonder what they think of me?

Nobody but you will do
Nobody else will be you
I think of you forever more
You're that shining one
In my dreams

Forever and ever
you'll be there for me
always in my heart.

English again

The Star, Wednesday June 17, 2009
DPM: Students must improve command of English
By KAREN CHAPMAN and PRIYA KULASAGARAN

KUALA LUMPUR: The Government recognises the need to improve students’ command of English to ensure they can compete globally.

Deputy Prime Minister Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin said students must be proficient in the language and have other skills to interact with the global community and tap into knowledge.

“Equity of access must be demonstrated in the provision of the knowledge and skills that will facilitate this access,” he said when delivering his welcome remarks before Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak opened the 17th Conference of Commonwealth Education Ministers at the Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre.

“While we are aware of the importance of mother tongue instruction in the early years of childhood education, we also need to address the future needs of our youth,” he said.

Muhyiddin, who is Education Minister, said Malaysia has always believed in the sharing of experience and knowledge through partnerships with each other in the region and beyond to attain Unesco’s Education for All goals.

As lack of resources often limits access to universal education, all stakeholders including governments, donors and the people must act to overcome it.

He said Malaysia was working with its Seameo, Asean and Unesco partners to make Education for All a reality.

The conference, which was also the golden jubilee celebration of the first Commonwealth Education Ministers’ Meeting in Oxford in 1959, was an ideal platform to minimise the impact of the global economic crisis on the education system of member states, he added.

Speaking to reporters later, Muhyiddin said the Government was close to making a decision on the language of instruction for Mathematics and Science.

“I will be briefing the Prime Minister soon.”

The Teaching of Mathematics and Science in English policy was introduced in stages, starting with Year One, Form One and Lower Six students, in 2003.

Proficient in the language indeed. Hmm. Why is it when Malaysians go overseas, some of them find it easier to speak in Malay?

And why does the Education Ministry find it useful to keep changing its policies? If you're a fan of conspiracy theories, I think you'll find the answer pretty fast.

Oh and one more interesting note:

"Close to making a decision on the language of instruction for Mathematics and Science."

Haven't you guys made up your minds on that yet? I know about all the roundtable talks and stuff, but seriously, what's taking you guys so long to decide what to do?

Mirotic

I'm slowly turning into a K-pop fan, thanks to my friends now. Getting more information to K-pop thanks to them.

Ok, to be fair I'm actually getting most of my K-pop info from one good friend, since Form 4 [I think]. And now I try to introduce it to other friends. Well, I try. Sometimes it doesn't work, then I enjoy new songs by myself.

Check out the songs which hit the 100+ list!

I went to bed when it was light, and I got up when it had gotten dark.

Empty

What happens when you're bored and there's nothing much to do.

Like me now, I feel like I've got too much time on my hands now. Hence the improved blog layout, changed colours and Yuriko Omega sitting on the bottom corner.

Oh yes, finally got my hands on Red Alert 3. After beta-testing it last year, finally I get to play the game. Whoopee!
Now I'm trying out the Rising Sun missions, should be done with them by tonight.

This is what happens when you're that bored.

City vs. suburbs

Just came back from the city after spending close to 4 days there. My God. He works in very strange ways sometimes, now hinting that I should move down to the city as soon as I get the chance to.

In the city, I know that I'll be near enough to all of my friends, then I don't have to run up and down from the city to Surrey Hills.


I can't wait for October to be here, it feels far away still.

Post-calculus effect

Exams -> long lunch -> walking around Camberwell -> back to city -> Fed Square -> Liling's place for dinner -> Hoyts Melbourne Central for The Hangover

The post-calculus effect. It's fantastic. At least it got most of our circle together for a lot of fun. For one, I managed to get some of us to see my side of life, out here in the suburbs. And we also got to try out some good food in Camberwell. Well, finally something I really like - friends coming to the suburbs for some fun.

Fed Square had an interesting art exhibit this time, called Volume by UVA. I was pretty impressed with what they did. Unfortunately for anyone to fully enjoy the effects of Volume, you need to be able to listen to the musical effects as well. The changing colours won't be enough to enthrall anyone.

And a side note on cooking: Once you've been forced to fend for your own self for at least a year, you develop your own style of cooking. Whether it's derived from cooking shows, or your own housemates, the skill will always differ with person and cooking utensils. You can imitate, but eventually you'll develop your own style.

I can't believe a girl suggested that we watch The Hangover. I guess it's better suited to guys, but that's just me, since the show was just lots of swearing and jokes. A little too frank for my tastes, but, well, considering the plot and stuff, it's pretty good for a de-stressing show.

Now I also know how innocent [or lack thereof] my friends are, with them laughing at every single joke The Hangover threw at us. Every. Single. Joke.

You can't choose your relatives, but you can choose your friends.-
-Not me.-

Core

Suggested theory: In any circle of friends more than 6 people, you tend to have a core/nucleus of friends who are the main movers and shakers of the whole gang.

It seems that I've found the movers and shakers for my circle of friends in Melbourne.

1. Jun Yeu
2. Michelle
3. Me
4. Shu Jie
5. KC

You'll definitely see us around anything we organise. We'd call out for something to do, and you'll definitely see the 5 of us in the thick of it.

Camberwell tomorrow. After Calculus 2.

Fun.

Fun.

Fun!

"Proof needed"

Sometimes the problem with teaching is that the concept can be alien. And thus, some people feel that they need clarification on topics you took for granted.

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And when you get stuff like "Proof needed" in your sample answers you feel like punching the person who gave the answers in the first place. Why the hell bother to give answers if you can't tell us how you arrive at the "proof"?

Anyhow, back to studying. Getting bashed by my friends for not doing much for calculus now.

English?

Wednesday June 10, 2009
Many object to making English a ‘must pass’ SPM subject
By KAREN CHAPMAN

PETALING JAYA: Most of the 500 views received by the Education Ministry as at the end of office hours yesterday are against any move to make English compulsory in order to obtain the Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) certificate.

A ministry official said those who contacted the ministry wanted the status quo to remain.

“We started receiving telephone calls from 10am until 5.30pm yesterday,” she said.

From today, she said people could telephone the ministry’s hunting line at 03-7723-7070 with their views from 8am to 5.30pm.

“There are 27 lines and we have enough people manning them,” she said.

People can also e-mail their views to kpkpm@moe.gov.my or send a fax to 03-7710-8880.

On Monday, Deputy Prime Minister Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin had said he was surprised to learn that English was not a “must pass” subject for SPM and wanted public feedback on the matter.

The Education Minister said it was a revelation to him as he had always thought that it was a prerequisite since students had to learn English in school.

He said he was also shocked to learn that national schools no longer taught English grammar.

Muhyiddin said students were now merely learning communicative English.

“This means they are picking up the language for communication purposes only,” he said, adding that almost 70% of students who take English passed the subject.

A pass in English has never been compulsory for SPM. Since 2000, a pass in Bahasa Malaysia was sufficient to get the SPM certificate. Previously, a credit was a must.

Somebody is living in the past here.

Anyway, for once I agree with something somebody in the government has to say. English should have been made compulsory, and yes, we have been learning basic grammar and communicative English only. Anyone will know whether you're Malaysian overseas. You tend to speak in your own brand of English. Which is how I know whether that Asian sitting across from me is Malaysian or not.

Now, who is against this move to make English compulsory for getting the SPM cert?
Speculation isn't really my forte, but if you ask me I think there are 2 main groups who would shout the loudest now - the traditionalist Chinese groups and some Malay groups. Holding onto old things, I guess, how far would that take you?

Chem

I just realised how much the tests cover that the lectures don't.

I don't like that. It forces us to actually use the textbooks. Not fair.

Oh well. Can't complain too much. Back to studying.

In every loss
In every lie
In every truth that you denied
In each regret
In each goodbye
Was a mistake
too great to hide
-New Divide - Linkin Park-

Winter

It's cold every day. Sometimes even the people turn cold. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's the exams.

Showers.
Sunlight.
Songs.

Ghost of Love - The Rasmus

Does it hurt
Does it burn
Do you know
What you've lost
Are you scared
Of the dark

Now that you've gone
All that remains
Is the ghost of love
Deep in my mind
I hear the dreams
Of the ghost of love

-I didn't come here looking for love, but if I stumble across it here why should I reject it?-
CY

Preston trip

Don't ask me what I was doing up in Preston before exams. I myself don't understand what I do sometimes. Accepting a tutoring job before my own exams? That's really... unusual. Oh wait, it's kinda like me to help others before solving my own problems.

Anyway, about Preston. It's quite a quiet town, I'd say. Not many trees, not much greenery. The main street is High Street, where you find almost all the shops. The other street is Gower Street, which intersects High Street and is where most of the public facilities are.

It's too silent a suburb for me. That might be part of the real estate agent's charms though - "Beautiful quiet suburb". Otherwise there's nothing much to describe about Preston.

Oh, and I did promise pictures, didn't I? Here you go!

Merri? This station, and the next one, Rushall, embody the Aussie spirit of finding weird names for places.

Preston town hall. I bet it's a relic of colonial times past.

Don't you just find the bird logo intricate?

Walking in the rain
so they can't see my tears - random quote

Plans

Creative writing assignment due - must print, must bring previous assignments, must get cover sheet, must attach SAE.
Preston trip - need to get Epping line to Preston station. [I promise pictures.]
Borrowed books - need to return by 6pm to Baillieu or risk epic fines.
More exam preparations - State Library closes at 9pm tomorrow.

Whee.

-It's really good to hear your voice
saying my name
it sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
hearing those words it makes me weak-
Lips of an Angel, Hinder

Bored

Finally finished my creative writing assignment.
Now I can focus on my final preparations for Chem, Calc 2 and ESD - although there really isn't anything to study for ESD, just probably going through all the past topics discussed in lectures. I still wonder what the use of ESD 1 is. The way I put it:

If NASA were to use Lego Mindstorms robots in their future space missions, or if Lego needed a remake of the Mindstorms program, only then would Robolab be justified.

But that's just a simplified way of looking at it.

Better get back to studying.

Fear denies faith.
-Space Marine quote, Warhammer 40k-

Forgotten part 4

I need my friends. They spark my life to greater heights.

Going outta my mind
Thinking of you
Random thoughts, random memories of us
Just you and I
Unforgettable
Not now, not ever

I weave in and out
of sanity
Between the poles
of light and dark
Being lonely isn't for us
being alone isn't a choice

Random conversation II

The intricate art of talking rubbish. Useful for jokes and to annoy people. Just make sure that you do it properly so that the victim will still forgive you. Here's an example [you know who you are, and I've modified parts]:

Location: Melb Uni Bookshop

MQ: He's not picking up.

CY: He must be wanking then.

JY: Yeah, "********!" [censored for privacy]
[with appropriate wanking action]

MQ: ... [1 second silence] What the... [starts chasing JY while whacking him]

Stress

Haven't felt like updating much now. Exam stress is upon me again. Why does the State Library close so early on Fridays, 3 hours earlier than usual? At least that's a place where I can study, unlike at home, where all I do is switch on my laptop and start playing and chatting.

Better yet, I just realised that my Creative Writing final assignment is 300 words short of the 1500 word count. Gotta do that up then. So I've got to switch gears, summon my artistic side in to do that job for me.

New Divide - Linkin Park

Whee. New song from Linkin Park, for the new Transformers movie. Have fun!

EPIC PHAIL of the Malaysian education system

The Star, Malaysia
Thursday June 4, 2009
Why 10 subjects is enough for SPM

KUALA LUMPUR: There are many positive reasons to limit the number of SPM subjects to 10, including the fact that it could overcome the shortage of teachers, Education Minister Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin said.

He said statistics showed that almost 90% of students took 10 subjects anyway.

“It all comes down to how we want to manage our education system so that we can produce students who are capable and not only in exams,” he told a press conference yesterday.

Asked whether opposition to the idea would lead to the proposal being shelved, he said:

“There are many who agree and they come from the education system.”

Muhyiddin said by limiting the subjects, the students could focus on core subjects as well as participate in other activities that would open up their minds.

“Apart from this, it can help teachers. With the reduced number of subjects, their energy can be focused on core subjects and the shortage of manpower could be somewhat overcome.”

Muhyiddin said that students also pursued more subjects just to add a few more As to their score.

“There are 111 electives, and some of these are not taught in school but require tuition outside of school. This means only those who can afford the tuition will benefit,” he said.

Producing students who are capable, not only in exams is a dream. As long as you retain the current ailing and failing syllabus, you won't be getting anywhere near achieving that dream of yours.

And what the hell are core subjects anyway? Look at the stuff we get fed in Malay. Your literature has a long history of being good, yes I agree with that. But it doesn't encourage lateral thinking.

"Patutkah Hang Jebat menderhaka terhadap Sultan Melaka?"

When the day comes when we students can say "Patut, seratus peratus patut!" to that question, then only will I say there is an improvement in anything you suggest.

And when you look subjectively at Moral Ed, think. Just think. And I'll prove that you will fail, Muhyiddin. You will bloody well fail if we asked you to take the Moral Ed exam for SPM. Civics is another subject which has practically nil value. How in the world are you supposed to teach patriotism and civic duty when the newspaper is full of stories of corruption and lawlessness? Don't think that students nowadays are so into games and studies that they neglect to look at current affairs. How are you supposed to teach good values when there are so many out there who don't practise what they preach?

And what sort of "other activities" will help to open up their minds? I will not be shocked or surprised to know that 90% of your students have parents who invest in piano education for their children. I have yet to see adequate proof that playing music is good for the mind. Sure, I have close friends who play the piano and consistently get good grades in exams and such. But there are those who don't play any music instruments and still get better grades. And talking about open minds, what counts? Does participating in political rallies count as "open minds"? Does participating in F1 research count? Does being national champion for Under-18 golf tourneys count? Does emerging as the runners-up in SEA DotA championship count?

Gah. And to think that I came from this sort of education system. I'm only lucky that I read outside of the syllabus for enjoyment, or life would be a constant torment.

Relatives

It seems to me that most of the Malaysians I know in Melbourne all have relatives somewhere about Aussie. In fact, I've always wondered why Melbourne is one of the cities of choice for Malaysians to go to.
Quick comparison of 3 major cities in Aussie:

Brisbane: Haven't been there for long, but the tropical weather would most likely suit us, coming from the humid tropics.

Sydney: Milder than Brisbane, but the beaches are more happening, apparently. More evidence needed from my friends in Sydney. More cosmopolitan than Melbourne, and nightlife seems to be better.

Melbourne: For the cold weather. It's good fun here, nightlife is adequate [although I haven't been allowed to go clubbing legally yet], beaches are ok, there's lots of different people from different backgrounds here.

But it still doesn't explain the clustering well enough. Sometimes even asking those who've been here for >10 years doesn't really help.

Revision

I don't feel productive enough. When I study in the State Library, at least I know I'm accomplishing something. But at home, that's a different story totally. Messenger is running, Facebook is active, I'm checking forums. Doesn't sound like I'm getting important stuff done at all. I'm thinking I should spend more time out of my place, so at least I know I'm studying properly.

Facebook quizzes

Now most of my friends are hooked on Facebook quizzes. How accurate these quizzes are, don't ask me. I made mine difficult but doable and still nobody's scored 100 for it yet, which isn't weird - cos I haven't shared everything with most of my friends yet. Proves that you guys don't really "know" me as well as you think you do.

I'm not gloating. I'm just being serious and reflective of the truth.

Engineering

We are the slackers united. How is it possible that compared to the psych students, the commerce and the science students, we seem to have so much time on our hands before exam time? And we thought we were stressed. I have my doubts about uni now. Who actually judges whether a course is difficult or easy? Students or public opinion?

Oh well. Maybe I should enjoy while it lasts.

Slacking/Hyperactive

***Note: this is meant to be a two-part update.***

(15:01) Rach: wad are u up to right now
(15:02) -Kyp Chia-Yang -: slacking and playing bejeweled 2 on fb

This is me. Lazing around, even though exams are up within two weeks. Of course I'm worried whether I'm doing any revision, compared to my friends. They all seem to be studying hard for their own reasons, unlike me. I read textbooks like storybooks, only looking at the interesting parts, hardly stopping to read the serious parts. I wonder where this path I'm on will take me to.

-I hope I'm one of those fellows who can skive off studying and still score well for uni exams.-

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There are some songs which get me up and going. Like the one in the vid below, It's You. At least I got spurred to get out of the dumps [besides all the help I got from my friends, of course] and get on with life. At least getting over a breakup makes me feel better.

So now I'm hyper instead, which is at least better than emo-ing day and night. I'm now getting stuff done up, so all's good for me.